this is us at the NJ shore last month. we spent the night in the camper at his parents' camp grounds. it was great fun. :) there are more pictures on facebook, if you're friends with me on there anyway. life has been pretty good as of late. we moved into our apartment. we have settled in. we're paying rent and such. its all loads of fun. i just wish i made more money. if anyone wants to get me a haircut, thatd be greatly appreciated! lol my hair is frizzy at the ends cuz of the split ends, and i need a dye job. :)
anyway, i wanted to tell everyone, that life is good. aside from the occasional short work weeks, life couldnt be any better. we had my friends jill and sean from high school up for halloween. we made pizza from scratch. that was the source of our first real fight. we argued about how to make the pizza. lame, right? at least it wasnt anything that actually mattered. :) and, we didnt get ANY trick-or-treaters. the kids in our neighborhood are officially lame! lol well, at least we got to eat all the candy, i guess. and gain 10 pounds in the process. lol

1 year anniversary

this weekend is the anniversary of our first date. we celebrated it on friday, because the day of our anniversary is on monday, and thats just no fun. we didnt do gifts because money is better spent on our apartment we are moving into in just under 3 weeks. YAY!!!!

i am so excited to be out on my own again. in a manner of speaking anyway. ill be living w him of course. :) my parents are none too thrilled, but i cant let that bother me. it bothers me more that they are stuck living in a time where everyone has to get married before anything else. its infuriating. but oh well. i have always had my own way of doing things with my life, making my own decisions, and if the cant deal with that, then tough. i love him, and want to spend the rest of my life with him, so why should i wait to do that? we arent young forever. i just want to get on to the next part of our lives.

its exciting and scary to me. ive never lived w anyone ive been in a relationship with. i mean, we practically do now, but its in 3-4 days at a time. not extended days in a row. we'll see how it goes.

the apartment we are moving into is not too far from where his parents live. seems interesting that we are migrated towards where we are given the most support in the first place. my parents dont even want to talk about it. and when they do they shove "living an unrighteous life" down my throat. i am a firm believer in making your own decisions and asking God to bless them. its impossible to know what God wants you to do, and reading the bible just confuses you more. So therefore, i am going to go with what feels right to me, and ask God to bless this decision and hope He understands my process. i understand what the bible says about marriage, and i believe that the rules that were written 5000 years ago were for a society that no longer exists. we have evolved as a civilization, and i believe that God does not expect us to be perfect. he merely wants us to be happy. as superficial as that sounds, i cant see how any deity would want someone to be unhappy.

anyway, thats the end of my rant. more later after weve moved, im sure. :) as long as we can get internet that is!

addicted to wow

so we have in the last 2 months started to play wow. World of Warcraft, for those of you who arent computer game savey. :) he got me addicted. and now i pay 15 bux a month to play a video game. a game i swore on my kitty's life i would never play. lol well, not on kitty's life, but i swore, regardless. oh well. its something we can do together, and he's passionate about it, and i like it. its had to find a good video game that i like and can play for an extended amount of time. and most games we both like are not two player. or dont suck as a two player game. however, now that we both play, we are spending more time inside, and less outside, where its gorgeous. so now, we are consciously making an effort to go out and do something not in his basement. :)

we went to see iron man 2 last night. and went to dinner after. a true date night :) we hadnt had one in a while. not cuz we didnt want to, or that we didnt have money, just didnt think of it. somehow after uve been in a relationship for a while, u forget to do the stuff u used to do together, like spending time in public.

danielle's wedding is coming up. he's not coming with me, but i think he wants to. he said he does, anyway. i think he's secretly excited that im going so he can order hawaiian pizza (GROSS!!!) and not feel bad about it. lol

we have been talking about moving in together, and we have a good deal of money set aside for it. gotta love tax returns!! i got over 1000 bux on mine, and he got a significant amount as well. i was gonna spend some of it on something, but i think im gonna just save it for that. never know what u end up having to spend money on when u move somewhere. god knows i spent enough of it moving to the house w annie and danielle almost 2 years ago. wow, cant believe its been that long now. >_<

anyway, things are great. thats my update for now.

this and that

i have been with my boyfriend for about 9 months now. crazy, huh? my longest ever relationship, and i want to spend the rest of my life with him. we met online, of all places. i had met my previous boyfriend there, and figured since i had gotten him that way, why not another. as cheesy as it sounds, he is everything i ever imagined having in a life partner. physically emotionally and personality wise. for the first time in my life, i actually yearn for a baby. yikes!! it hit me yesterday when i was watching tv. as lame as it sounds. the damn gerber baby commercial came on. and i thought to myself - i want one. i doubt darrell would be happy about that, but hey, who cares. i hope to marry him eventually anyway. now dont think im gonna be one of those girls thats gonna go get herself pregnant on purpose cuz they wanna trap their boyfriends or they feel lonely. a baby is not in the plans for my life at this juncture right now. a baby is 3 years from now. maybe. after we get married. after we get a place to live for the two of us. after we both make that long term commitment that binds us to each other forever.

anyway, everyone else has a blog about their love life. i figured i would too. theres lots to think about when youre in a long term, commitment based relationship. i guess i need to type it out so that i can make sense of it all. if anyone out there in the world wide web has any advice on love, life, etc., feel free to comment. :)